I have blogged a few times about my great fondness for the word ‘hope’. So much so that it appears in my house a little (see right).
365 days or 525,600 minutes, that’s what it takes to get through a year. And what an interesting and lovely year 2010 has been.
New Year may mean many things. But in my experience it reminds us that either we’re not quite in the position we would’ve preferred and can’t see how that might change, or we believe that 2011 might be terribly exciting. In my mind, New Years Eve is usually all about sadness or hope, even if we never admit that to another living soul.
I won’t tell what was happening in my world on this date last year, but let’s say I remember 30 December 2009 very well and was holding back a lot of tears 365 mornings ago (31st). Something had raised it’s head, again, quite unexpectedly on the previous day. So while I probably pretended to believe in hope for 2010, actually, I was also sad. Something I wanted very much was patently never going to happen, and I had to learn to finally, and again, let it go, forever. And, this year, which doesn’t seem that long later, I enter a new year full of hope and excitement about what may come to pass. There are some people who have become significantly more important than anyone before; there are new people that I didn’t know then; and there are my forever friends, who remain in my world wherever we may be.
Despite what I felt on New Years Eve 2009, 2010 was actually rather lovely and very kind to me, and I know 2011 is going to be my favourite year ever. In part, that is not in spite of the dissection and the resulting stroke, but because of it. I guess God really does work in mysterious ways.
So if it happens that you’re secretly not enjoying the beginning of a new year, then please take a tiny piece of comfort from someone who knows that anything might happen for you next year. Absolutely anything. And chances are – I really believe this for you, even if you don’t – it will. So have a little hope today. Or let me have it for you. It’s a whole new year tomorrow, and I can’t wait to see what happens!